Even after 17 days of 2010, I still feel so last year.. With everyone talking to me about my future. I feel so afraid. The fear lingers within me. I can somehow visualize myself in different situations. This is most definitely not good. The only reason I’m actually posting here is due to a promise which I made to myself of not posting at yanayanayana.blogspot.com.

Well, technically I’ll be 16 in less than 2 months. Honestly, who in the world doesn’t look forward to his or her sixteenth? Well, I was once, looking forward to it. But no to avail will I anymore. Firstly, because it feels like it’s just not me, I feel like an immature kid. And I’ve never looked in depth of my future.

I’ll be confident, I shan’t think too much. It’s just getting me so caught up with stuff.

Well 2009 had loads of ups and downs.. Shan’t speak much about it though.

I’ve been sick a lot lately. From sore throat, sore eyes, stomach aches which aren’t the kind where you have to poop or you’re hungry or it’s gastric or it’s menstrual cramps or nausea. But simply sharp pains. There’s a cause but I’m ashamed to speak of it here. And no, it is definitely not pregnancy.

I’ve eaten those meds prescribed by the doctor himself yet I still have these pains. And recently, I was out. After a meal, I was sort of dizzy and my nausea level went sky high. It was as if I just got down from a roller coaster of some sort. And the pains were there again. I wonder why it’s on and off..

I’m worried what will happen to me… But nevertheless, what can I do?

Met Farysa today after such a long time, maybe a week or so. Since I was at Malaysia and he was so busy with work all day long. I hope he gets a break from work so that we can go on a picnic which I longed for. I’m really bored right now to the extent that I update this but really, I should. Hehe.

youarewhatyoulove:

oh i always get the urge to write personal facebook statuses or away messages. something like “i can’t believe you’re putting me through this.” or “i love you” or “where are you?”

but then you’d be able to read it